Polaroid(itis)

MyspaceFaces

We've got a very self-centered, egotistical generation about to hit puberty.
And on the other side we have ageist, liberal oldies that think they shouldn't have to give up their domain to the newer generations. (I had two people come through my line at Whole Foods; one who thought I was too young to know who the Simpsons were [wtf?] and another who just couldn't believe I knew anything about any artists before the 1990s.)
Our lives are like a "myspace" picture, the cameras always pointed at us. Companies are going to have to rethink a lot of their policies and approaches to recruiting employees.
And yes... I see the irony in the fact I'm communicating these thoughts through my blog.
But I like the pictures I can find. Odd angles that make for cool drawings.

PS: I made these kids look much more attractive than they really were.

I don't drink enough.

I've realized I don't know anyone anywhere near the same situation as I am in.
I don't have any friends who can relate to anything I go through.
No one has the experience of a full time job, a budget, and a life going nowhere. Basically working to live. I'm the less extreme of that situation but it's all the same. I'm alone with the struggle. One day everyone will realize what it's like. I'm not asking for sympathy cause there's none anyone can give. I'm not asking for "older" friends. I'm not asking for anything, just to understand my mindset right now.
I'm stuck. Trapped. I could leave but to where? And with what?
And I can just envision all the possible things that can go wrong. They've already happened to my plans for Tokyo and Disneyland and any other pinnacle I try to accomplish on my own. What's stopping something stupid to happen to my chances at Italy. Then I basically wasted an entire year.

I don't drink enough.

The Shop

Productive

So far today has been productive-ish.
I suppose as much as a crazy rainy day can be.
I got my ticket to Deerhoof (!!!!!) and requested the day off from work.
Bought some cd's (which I haven't done in God knows how long).

Dimitri from Paris funk/dance mixes:

















X - Los Angeles (one of the greatest punk bands from SoCal)

















and High on Fire - Death is this Communion



















Now that I think about it, the guys at The Last Record Store must have thought I was crazy... Deerhoof tickets, then 3 cds, one crazy death metal, one old school punk, and one electro/dance. Guuuuugh?

Indirect Silence

I just found some old recordings from about 2003-04 of my old band Indirect Silence.
Funniest thing ever, a couple of freshman playing Heavy Metal.
A blast from the past, seriously. But surprisingly it was recorded pretty well and they were both decently constructed.

There's so many bands I wanna start:
Rolling Stones Punk cover band
Psychedelic Rock
Folk Indie
and super fast crazy Death Metal

it'd be fun.

I also am trying to set up my art show downtown. I wanna DJ it too.
Looks like Tokyo is a bust but that's okay cause I'm down with just going over the summer, Tokyo's not going anywhere so I'm in no hurry.

Let's watch some Muppets.

School Daze

Oh Noes.
School is here.
And it's here to stay.
I haven't a full load but it's a good start. I love my art history class though. It blows my mind. And I'm learning Italian pretty fast, it's still hard to switch over from Spanglish.
Other than that it's been pretty breezy here in the SR. A guy came through my line at Whole Foods with "S" and "R" tattooed on the inside of his index and middle fingers and I asked what they were and he just held them up, sullenly, and said "Santa Rosa". I laughed and joked that I was going to get "Rohnert Park" tattooed on my forehead.

PS:

Columbus, OH

Flew out to see my sissy.
Got off the ghetto ass plane and saw my breath reach heights I didn't think were possible.
Maya picked me up and we went to her gas filled house where we collected ourselves for some barhopping. We met some fine ragazzas at a sushi place called Tyfoon where we ate ourselves silly.
Then we met up with some other peeps and hit up an old bar where I took many a picture and tired out my camera.
The next day was beautiful and we went thrift store shopping where I found a nice plain black jacket for $4, a Polaroid camera for $10, and the most fitting leather jacket ever for $12. It was a good day.
That night there was a fight in the street below Mayas apartment that ended in a gunshot. Pretty fly.
Then my last day was spent snowboarding on a "mountain". More like a pile of dirt with snow on it. It was still a lot of fun.
So I survived and have a lot of memories. Thank you sissy, you made my weekend.

Pondering

Tonight I've had a lot on my mind.
Too much.
I've thought about what I'm really gonna do when I'm done dicking around with the JC (which I swore I'd never go to, but here I am), still living at home (which I also said I'd immediately move from if I didn't get into CalArts), what kind of friends I have, whether or not I should just drop everything and move away.
I idolize my big sister, and so far I've been doing a lot of the opposite of what she did.
But I'm thinking about what I want to do. And I'm doing just about none of it.
Is Italy really worth all of this bullshit?
What do I have to lose if I just pick up and move to ... anywhere?
It may seem like a dick move but I don't feel needed or even wanted.
I've got more thinking to do, of course.
Hopefully when I get back from Ohio my mind will be made up.

I have to prepare for the winter tundra of Columbus.

Armstrong Woods

So it's been stormy weather for a few days now and I got sick of it and decided to say "screw you" to the storm and go hiking anyway. So Annalise and I went to Armstrong woods which was magnificent. No one was there and the atmosphere was eerie and wild.

We then walked around Guerneville and it made me want to go to Tahoe even more (if that were possible). So after a lot of wandering we finally decided to hit up the Whole Foods in Sebastopol and then eat pie at Coco's.

Oh and I've decided that I'm going to post a drawing on all my new entrees just cause.

Pictures:

Resolutions + Books

It took me a while but I came up with some new years resolutions (and they aren't bullshit like "go green, or save a tree or come out of the closet).

1. Set aside and hour or two of each day to doodle or draw from real life or even stuff out of a magazine.
2. Take more pictures (maybe even save up for a camera of my own)
3. Backpack adventures
4. Read everything in my library again
5. Escape.

Here are some new books I got:

New Years Eve

Nothing can really come close to last years New Years Eve event.
Being in Seattle with Johnny and Kalena and watching the fireworks off the space needle.
And then spending a week in Vancouver.
But I had more fun tonight than I thought I would.