Jaded

Can someone have a mid-mid-life crisis?
I feel like I'm in a hole, paranoid.
Is it just me getting over the past year and how it's shaped my life and now things are finally slowing down? Should I keep slowing down? My body says yes but my mind says "HOLY SHIT MAN GOTTA GET OUT".

I believe it's a combination of the relapse of such a hectic year and the fact that I WANT life to always be this way. But I'm blind to what I NEED.

Maybe love will give me peace of mind, if I can find it, again.

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